New Year New Me?

3..2..1.. HAPPY NEW YEAR, everyone shouts as the clock strikes 12, welcoming 2025. It's the magical reset button we all swear exists. So all made their resolutions? Or are we over that tradition already?

"New Year New Me", is the anthem of January isn't it? But its more like new year, same me with a sprinkle of delusional optimism and a to-do list that screams. Every year we promise to be the better version of ourselves with all those vision boards and stuff, but who are we kidding? Tell me how many of your last year's resolutions made past February? 

The last 10 days of December are HEAVY. You feel so overwhelmed about the things you have achieved during the year and that this beautiful year has come to an end. At the same time you feel so left behind, thinking about the things you could have achieved during this year, all the missed opportunities and the time being wasted doing nothing but scrolling. Remembering the time we procrastinated so much that we let that task slip to another day and another and taking it to the next year with you. You also feel happy about the places you travel, new things you tried, and concerts you attended, making this year so wholesome. And yet, as the clock ticks closer to midnight on December 31st, it’s not just the memories of the year that weigh heavy—it’s the what-ifs. What if I had tried harder? What if I had said yes to that opportunity? What if I had spent more time with the people who mattered, instead of mindlessly scrolling through a screen?

At the end, I think about the version of me who started the year, full of plans and ambitions. Would that version of me be proud of who I am now? Or would they shake their head at the moments I let fear, laziness, or self-doubt win? I always think that if at that particular moment I would have just pushed myself a little more and made myself sit to work and not procrastinate it out of fear or laziness, would then I be successful? But I don't know, cause I was too lazy or full of fear to do it. It's always too late when this thought comes to mind. 

I don't like the word "maybe" but, maybe next time I will know.